Can’t run from Hashem

From whence can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my depths, you are also there, If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far of your right hand will hold me fast. If i say “Surely the darkness will hide me; and the light becomes night around me, even the darkness will not be dark to me.

Apparently, I can run from anywhere but not from thy presence, I can quit but not stop trusting in Hashem. Indeed, whence can i go from thy spirit. I have lost the world to gain him.
I did like the psalmist so much that I called myself a man after Gods own heart who would do his will and keep his command without realizing what it meant. I forgot that the Psalmist had so much war on every side within his family and against nation during his lifetime; he had little or no rest. I finally understand Psalm 139 today.